No Love Lost...

... No love found!

This time last year... I don't even remember what it was like... Things changed so much...

Some people believe that next year will be the last. That the world will end in December 2012. I am not one of them. I am also not one of the others that refuse to accept even a word about it.

Truth is, I don't care. If it is true, there is nothing I can do about it, except live the last few months at my best. If it's not true, then nothing will change, so I just need to keep on living.

As the last moments of 2011 pass more quickly then they should be, I realized that so many things happened this year. So many right and wrong choices, so many life-changing decisions, so many new people in my life, so many lost friends... Some of the most important moments...

• I turned eighteen in May and supposedly became an adult.
• I was never able to fully accept my mother's boyfriend.
• I went to my very first football game (Bulgaria - England).
• I saw my celebrity crush in real life (He is so gorgeous).
• I saw many of my football idols in real life (England).
• I spent two amazing weeks in England (London, Manchester).
• I got accepted into my dream university (Two of them).
• I improved my grades in school (Not by far, but still).
• I got over the hardest crush I ever had (After three years).
• I broke my relationship with my father (Nothing surprising).
• I never got over the fact that my father has another child.
• I lost one of my life-long friends, because of his girlfriend.
• I lost another friend, because he fell in love with me.
• I fucked up the chance to be with one great guy (Stupid me).
• I gave up from one dream and followed another (Fingers crossed).

All of this... I didn't realize so many things happened, until now. And I want 2012. Now!

Consequences:
I will be moving on the other side of this continent in about six months.
I will be studying something I never imagined myself doing before.
I will be meeting new people, have new friends, maybe I'll even fall in love.
I will be haunted with the thought: "Did I make the right choice?"

Result:
I will be building my life from scratch.

This is why I am spending this moment of remembrance for 2011, the key year in my life.

Welcome, New Year! Welcome, 2012! Welcome, new life! Welcome to the world, Lilly!

I'll be back one day...