Life Changes...

Warning: I'm too pissed off to stop writing now, so BEWARE - LONG RANT AHEAD!

Amelie. I know that people use this phrase so often that it has literally lost its meaning, but I'll say it anyway... This movie changed my life. It's so simple, so beautiful, and so capturing that I can watch it again and again. And it makes me want to believe in something. In something real or imaginary, something certain or unproven, something logical or magical, something existing or impossible. Something. I want to believe in creativity. I want to believe in uniqueness. I want to believe in goodness. I want to believe in love. I want to believe in miracles. I want to believe in angels. I want to believe in happiness. I just want to believe. And I do. Sometimes I do, but sometimes I don't. Sometimes it all makes sense, and the very next moment things just seem so complicated, and tiring, and illogical. Some people say I'm too much of a dreamer, too much of an optimist, and that life will only bring me pain and disappointment. It may be so. But my dreams make me happy. All the silly things I want and imagine make me happy. All the little things that I secretly enjoy bring me happiness. And in the sweet intoxication of this happiness, I dream. I dream about all things, and everything seems possible. Like Amelie, I dream about love, miracles, magic. And like her, I believe that they are all possible if you take your fate in your own hands. Maybe the Law of Attraction really exists, and maybe it doesn't. As Blaise Pascal said: "I rather live as if God exists even if He doesn't than live as if He doesn't exist to find out He does." This is the very reason why I don't like watching drama movies. There is enough pain already in my life and around me. Everywhere you look in this world, there is pain and suffering and sadness. Why would I want to watch the same thing for entertainment? I think it's sadistic and sick. I know it exists, I don't need to be reminded of it every second of my life. I've had some of it myself, and I think I'll pass on the next round, thanks. I rather watch the thing that is missing in our modern, little world. I want to watch cheesy, happy-ending, cliche-filled love. I want to see miracles happening to people. I want to remember what magic was. This is E-N-T-E-R-T-A-I-N-M-E-N-T for me. After all, I'm just a kid that has watched too much Disney movies. Maybe I am too much of a dreamer. Maybe I will suffer more as life goes on. Maybe I have unrealistic dreams. But I am happy now. And I know I can be happy later. So what is your problem with that?

"Still, true love does exist."

"These are hard times for dreamers."

"The fool looks at the finger that points at the sky."

"We pass the time of day to forget how time passes."

"It's called a reality check - the last thing she wants."

"You mean she would rather imagine herself relating to an absent person than build relationships with those around her?"